And close to midnight, the end to this day, everything flowed out. The wave of emotions reigned for that few minutes. And it left just as quickly as it came. What's left is the mess and the aftermath. It was yet the same old scar, constantly being picked at everytime it heals and fades.

And here I am, wondering what went wrong, wondering what led to this path, what led to this predicament. It is a repetition, the same old problem and the emotions never change. The onslaught of emotions, one after the other is tiring to the soul.

I want this to be over. It's more than enough. It would have been fine, if I found some hope to cling onto. The search is futile, for each day is getting worse. It is like a bottomless pit that I fell into. And, I'm still falling.